my sucks of the day could also be a rejoice but i'm sticking it here because of how uncertain i am about it.
Tomorrow i got an appointment at one of the old high schools i've attended to see if i can get back in. and I'm REALLY nervous about it. My mom acts like I'm already in and that adds a lot of pressure... plus people keep praising me for "going back" when i don't even know if i'm allowed back in yet. My bf keeps telling me "if you can't come back there's always another way to finish high school" but this is really how i want to do it.
I was really excited to get the appointment but the closer i get to tomorrow the more i dread it. i dont want to be told i can't go back cause i'm 20. I know a bunch of people who've gone back at my age and a few who were older.... so... chances are good they'll let me in but i'm really worried about how i might handle it if i don't get in.
i still need 12 1/2 credits, which if i work hard i can do in one year, theres a way to take a period to just do book work with no teacher, and when you complete a book you get a credit and a few people i know can get 4 or 5 done in one semester, i'd just need 3 a semester. but because of my age and the amount i need to graduate and the fact that i've tried to go back to a different school when i wasn't ready to and failed miserably at that might keep me out of it. id really rather not do adult education or go for my ged but if i have to i will. I just want one more chance to try to finish it the right way, if i don't i have a feeling I'll feel like i failed myself for a long time to come
it sucks to know i'm ready to go back and know i could do it this time but not knowing if i'm allowed to.
A good thing is, one of my old teachers who i ran into in a parking lot on the first day said "yeah but look at your FACE! there is no way they could look at that face and turn you away, i'll put in a good word for you" lol i had a class with him about.... 4 years ago maybe? he always used to make fun of me for looking like i was 10, as did many people, now they say i look 14-16, yay me. so maybe people thinking i look younger may work in my favor x_x;