by Trethowan » Sun Oct 07, 2012 4:56 pm
Tell your grandma everything that ever happened. If she doesn't agree to help you in some way then tell someone else. A counselor in your area will be a good place to start. If you're in an abusive home then get out. Find a job as a Medical Assistant and move out. Preferably not too close that the abuser still has any control over you. If nobody knows what's going on then nobody can help you. I'm assuming you're an adult now by the schooling you've indicated? You have to speak out. You have to stand up for yourself. Stand up and fight for yourself even if you don't feel like it, or even if you don't feel like it will do you any good. Take up the initiative to handle the situation. Even though you were a victim of abuse it doesn't absolve you of the responsibility to yourself to respond to what was done to you. Nobody else can do that for you. You have to fight for you. That sounds a little weird but when you take charge of the situation, hold the abuser accountable for his actions, and force people to listen and most of all get help, you'll begin your road to recovery. Feelings will come later. When one is depressed and numb nothing will feel good at first, even the right actions that get us out of bad situations. You have to push through with logic, knowing that eventually you'll start feeling better. There's always hope but if you do nothing then nothing will happen. If you start doing something about what was done to you, step by step, day by day, then you will begin to see positive change.
