Dollieh Sanctuary

So I can't show all of his pictures. He has a piercing that puts him into the adult category and I can't post that here.... yet. Hopefully soon.

Nichodemus is an Immortality of Soul head on a Spiritdoll proud body. He has the spiritdoll jointed hands too. He is another of my undead. This is the only unmodified doll I own. everyone else has tasted my dremmel goodness, but Nicky was just... perfect. His piercing is permanent. It is not just some glue. It is made with a swarovski crystal and some 24K gold. It is a barbell. It is a very important part of his story line and it happened when he was still alive. Anyway... The rest of him was blushed by me and I made all his clothes. He plays the harp. It relaxes him in a way that nothing else does. Initially I thought that he was an evil character. He is not. I had thought that he was unjust and cruel, but he was neither of those things either. Like all of us Nicky sometimes loses his way and plays with his food. He knows he is beautiful in an aching desperate sort of way. He knows he doesn't have to speak in order for you to hear him and he can smell when he has gotten your attention. HE is most certainly a wicked calculating beast, a beautiful dagger, but he has also managed in keeping some part of himself undeniably pure. Now I am going to post an insane amount of pictures because I can't help it. I have meant to for some time.... and I just love him. He guards my bedside while I sleep and is more fierce than my nightmares so keeps them at bay.



"Only I know how to hurt you. Only I can ease your pain."









Nichodemus remembers the feel of sun upon his skin. He remembers the taste of the air before he only knew it to be heavy with dew. He remembers what it felt like to love, to love his life, and to be loved in return.



"I hate it when you touch me."
"But I love the way you feel, Nichodemus."
Azriel is the one who turned him and controlled him for many centuries.



The last picture of him I can't actually post. Like I said it shows his piercing. this is a link: http://th01.deviantart.net/fs71/PRE/i/2013/356/6/8/pierced_by_myrretah-d6yxkbw.jpg. I hope that's OK. It is an adult image so don't look at it if you are sensitive about such things. If you do and get offended, you were warned, like from the top. Why did you do that to yourself? Silly, I said it only a dozen times -_- don't get mad at me. It's what was in his story. If I left it out it wouldn't be him.

So there he is. I actually have meant to be more active. I have been skulking. I'm a touch shy I guess and don't want to butt into everyone's conversation. It's not polite, LOL. I look a lot from my phone. when I tried to post from my phone there was a serious case of .... NO.... which has really impeded my ability to interject. Today I worked twelve hours and I was like... screw it, I'm gonna post something. It might be complete nonsense but I'm going to.

He's gorgeous. His face-up and clothes look great.

hehe... you're not butting into everyone's conversation, you're a part of it. <3

His faceup and bodyblushing are wonderful, and I like the piercing, too.

And seriously - what Trethowan said - you're part of the conversation too (although I think I know how you feel - I get the same on larger, faster moving forums where it seems like (run-on sentence intentional, trying to mimic how said forums feel to me ) everybody already knows everybody else really well and is really hyper about it and by the time you've got the courage to say anything they're 5 pages on already and you feel like you're been knocked over by a rampaging rhino (not that I know from direct personal experience, but there was a poster at the drs once that suggested that's what proper flu felt like). )

He's absolutely beautiful, and his story makes is sad.

I third what Trethowan said. You are part of this family too. <3

Thank you guys so much.

First... I'm so glad that you like him. I was almost not able to get him together. I was going to sculpt him and the day I had made the decision to get started, I found him on the old IOS website. He came out on my birthday (well within days of my birthday so his order period was during it) and it was so close to what the order date for him was... I was elated until I looked at the year. It was the year before I found him so he would not be available. I found the IOS place on the den and was so hopping mad over it. I just wanted an answer as to whether he might be available again and no one was really very helpful... well batchculture was amazing but we'll get to that won't we. I wrote to the artists because she had suggested that depending upon the quantity of the requests for a sculpt they received, they would sometimes rerelease them. The artist is actually very nice. She wrote to me directly. She said she wasn't sure when and if they would, but they may. His mold was still viable. that was a pretty slim thread to hold onto. Not even moments after I got the message from the artist I got a PM from batchculture... there was a head on the marketplace. It was expensive and I didn't care. It was Nicky. I had explained to the artist that what I would sculpt would come out just the way that they had already sculpted him. What they made was a clear vision of the character and my sculpt would have looked too similar, even if I had made mine and never seen theirs, I wasn't comfortable making him, yanno? So Nicky is second hand from overseas somewhere, I think itally but it may have been france. I did not care so long as I had his head. The body was all tax return. I will tell you how amazing that thing is till the day I die. Both he and Kaze are on spiritdoll bodies and I am looking forward to getting three different sizes of the girls too, though one is for Okami because she is my sweet

Thank you. I am glad to be a part of things here even if I'm the kid that creeps in the back door and looks around quietly. I try to interject where I can, things that would be of use. I guess, like you mentioned Shortncuddly (If I ever meet you, you will get hugs because of your name, LOL, cuddles are good) they are just so energized about.... nothing really interesting and don't really care about what new weird things that are not a chloe or a black code 2 or whatever the latest in flavor is. Let me tell you, I didn't buy into it highschool, I'm not gonna now. Black is black, pink is not the new black, and you can go die in a cold dark ditch if you let orange or yellow near the equation at all. What can I say to that kind of mentality? Yes... we know... you want to buy it.... so get it. shut up about it and post pictures so we can all talk about it and stop whining. And we know that this person ois the faceup artist everyone swoons over so lets talk for ten pages about the last picture she posted that is a closeup of her chloe's nostril. Sweet. I wanted to read all that just to find that no one else ever posts the sculpts I like so I have nothing to say. That would be the rhino, Huh?... I need to skulk less on my phone though, seriously. I look while I am at work cause it makes me happy to see all your pictures and empathize with both the good and the bad as it happens.... but my phone has a serious case of the "NO" and not just that but "F NO" and will often post mostly gibberish on my behalf. Then I am so tired by the time I get home I just plain forget and feel like a jerk the next day on my phone again, LOL. I love you guys. You really make me feel welcome and I smile every day just because you are all here. Bet ya didn't know that, didja?

Love the story behind Nicky's head - what an amazing series of coincidences And yeah, I know what you mean about not feeling comfortable sculpting him after having seen theirs.

Just realised - that last pic of him really makes him look like he's crying, or just about to.

And you've nailed it, it is like high school. The whole popularity crap - and the newcomers feeling like they'll be bullied if they buy the doll they want and not something that's more popular and expensive. Tumblr's a bit easier to deal with as I can block all the bitchy "confession blogs" and scroll through looking at the pictures. But generally here the pace and character are safe enough for me to feel happy talking (I am more talkative online than I am irl - it's easier to go and hide for a few hours if I need to online then carry on - I get odd looks if I do that when I'm talking face to face... ) (And if we ever end up in the same general area, I'm happy to give and receive hugs as I agree - they are good If the other half', aka the yeti, is with me, you'll get hugged to death though...)

Duuuude..the emotion he has in those pictures and poses! I love a doll that can resonate so well emotionally.. its as if they're human themselves!

And I'm glad that, despite the shyness, you posted! I'm pretty shy too, where I go on a reply-spree, then just sorta disappear and lurk. I have the same fear of butting into other peoples conversations in tightly knit sites.. but, based on everyone elses response here, that's not the case here x'D

Thank you for sharing your doll with us!

Nicky is a rather desperately deep kind of guy. I'm glad that quality came across. It's funny cause sometimes he seems to be smiling, just a little somber smile, and other times he looks like I just kicked his puppy. I will take the shot from the same angle in close to the same light and he looks so different. I have a moody doll who forgot he was made out of plastic.

I'm always afraid I will be interjecting into a conversation where what I say will have no relevance or value. I have tried to be helpful on other bords or offer an opinion based on my experience with little or no response. I don't expect to be miss popularity by any stretch, but I do take the time to look at what is being posted around me and offer thoughtful positive comments. I guess it is easy to get lost with one or two such cases, but I have found that my posts shut down threads. It's rolling along and then bam.... I post a picture of one of my guys with some tidbit of information, then respond to the conversation.... and then DAYS go by with nothing or when someone does say something it is as though I didn't post at all. So I just.... stopped. I still do from time to time, but for the most part I am quiet everywhere. I mean you can see what I'm doing on my flickr because I am constantly uploading from my phone, but otherwise I have just come to terms with the fact that, either the other people simply don't like or appreciate what I'm doing.... or they have absolutely no idea how to respond to what I put into my guys at all. Every single one of them is from a book I have written or am writing. I put quotes that are pertinent to the pictures, or what they are feeling... songs that inspired the shoot. Maybe I'm just nutters, LOL.

YAY for yeti hugs. all hugs are good, even bone crushing death defying ones that make your eyeballs go pink, LOL. I don't like talking over people or repeating myself so tend to be more quiet or withdrawn in person. I have a few really good friends, and to be honest, I have spent whole days where we just make things together with very little actual verbal sharing. Okami says I'm even more antisocial than she is, which I think surprised her quite a bit. I like being social, don't get me wrong, I just refuse to make an ass of myself simply trying to get a word in edgewise. I flit too, which doesn't help matters much. Again that is what Okami calls it. Today I am working on a faceup, a HUGE tattoo that covers all of this little one's body, a sculpt, and writing more of the two stories I am working on. I should clean too. And make dinner.... and I want to sew. I do all of this at once. I will be at it till about 2 am... I will post in here ten times if you guys respond. I am ridiculous... and no I have no idea how I do it. Maybe I am using ADD for good or something. I'm all over and being like that in a social environment is.... awkward because I just randomly go... OOoooo butterfly, and I'm off! I'm seriously worse with graveyards though. I love graveyards. so peaceful and quiet. Oh I ramble too. SEEEEEEE!

Its funny because I just saw a confession on tumblr and I thought it might be my fault. It was about how whomever it was hated when people made such big deals about their hybrids. It was posted right after I posted Nicky here. I was a sad sad panda. It's funny because it's not his parts, I swear. I love him. I just love all of him and I would because it is him if I happened to get him whole from one place. I think that he is perfect the way he is though, to be him, not because he is a combo from two companies, but because... well It's Nichodemus! He's a real little thing and not just locked away in my noggin. I hope it was just coincidence because I am not trying to push that at all. I'm just so happy with how he is... just so undeniably him and identifiable as being only him even in a room full of others that were the same sculpt. It's not that he happens to be a hybrid at all.

Depending on where you've posted them, and generalising horribly, I'd say that some places don't seem to attract the sort of people who would know how to respond to something that is outside their frame of reference and who therefore don't know how to be interested in it (I know people like that irl too, who also can't quite mask that they're only pretending to be interested). I have just re-read that sentence and I think it's probably as clear as mud, so I'm hoping it gets my point across without sounding too bitchy (which was not my intention).

I doubt that confession was about you - I suspect the timing was just coincidental. Anyway, you hardly made a huge deal about how he was a hybrid, you just came across as being utterly and understandably excited that you'd found the real version of your character And besides, even though none of mine are currently hybrids (this will change soon!) I can understand the joy in finding the right head to match the right body with the right hands... it's one just one more way of making the doll/character yours. There's only one confession blog I read - Our Dolls Confess, which is dolls saying things about their owners, from the almost saccharine sweet to the ultra sarcastic and everything in between. The others get blocked as soon as they emerge.

I love what you've done with Nichodemus - the emotion coming through in those photos - just wow!

And that's an awesome hybrid combo - resin match and proportion all of it, those hands! (hrmm I'll keep that company combo in mind for future reference!)

Argh! He's lovely - in a really masculine way. And I'm not making any sense

As for conversation butting in etc. - I suspect I'm a terrible one for that - I don't post anything for months at many boards, and then suddenly have a surge of typing! So yea I'm the v.last person who can say anything at all about that - not that I think you do butt in at all, if anything I'd love to see more of your bjds around here - they've been universally brilliant so far!