DollyKim Are your books about Xavier online to download on Amazon? I'd gladly buy and read your work!
As for the doctors...I
am getting things looked at, trust me. Every single thing that my doctor will authorize. I've already had one of the most invasive blood tests you can get where they took so much blood out of me that I was literally weaving around like a drunkard afterwards and until I got some food into me I was so out of it my grandmother was starting to get really worried. I also had a hellish X-ray done. So far they've found some spinal arthritis but write this off as "natural aging" even though at twenty five I don't think I should be having as much as they say I do. I also have a herniated disc that happened
suspiciously (like, on the dot) around the time my back pain started. They still say that couldn't be causing the pain. I'm on massive supplements because my vitamin D level test literally came back as a zero. Yes, a zero. I'm on massive theraputic doses of it that you have to get by prescription, but it hasn't made a difference in my localized pain, which is what is what I need to get under control. I'm also fighting my crappy insurance and slow moving PM doctor to write me a pre-cert for a second MRI to update my records, especially since between my last MRI and now I had a pilonidal cyst the size of a grapefruit (I am not exaggerating in the least, I
swear) which could have easily did some wicked damage to my tailbone because of the sheer size of the damn thing.
So yeah, I've seen so many doctors that at this point I'm like Pavlov's dogs. I hear the word "doctor" and suddenly I turn into a hissing, spitting demon.
But as for my stories, unfortunately I'm caught in both hell
and high water at the moment. Which honestly makes me rather sad, because these stories, despite them being your general m/m "romantica" material, actually mean a lot to me. I feel like I'm filling a niche for the readers who have weaned themselves off the cut-and-dry (and often rather dysfunctional relationships) portrayed in "Yaoi", but also don't want to read stories that are page after page of anonymous hook-ups with the crudest language possible. There seems to be a sore lack of stories that fall in the middle. I try to write realistic stories despite the fantastical elements portrayed within. If I immerse myself in a particular world I try and make it feel real for the reader, try and make the characters flawed and human, even if they happen to be firing with a plasma-gun or wearing capes and masks or living on a space station. I hope I can get my life in order to actually start giving these characters the stories they deserve, or the plot the characters it deserves within it.
Ah, the woes of the writer.