How many years has it been since I've had one of these? Time is weird, since I've awoken in this body all my days seem to lump together like those chocolate kisses I kept in my pocket in third grade. I'm not even sure how long Egon's been off getting his face-up done.
I don't even know why I'm out here now, I feel just as alone out here as I did sitting on Spiral's shelf. Am I really so dependent on other people? Back when I was human I had lovers, friends, family.... Now who do I have other than Egon? An annoying brit and his sister along with a baby-faced elf. I get time with spiral every so often but she's either sleeping or working lately.
I don't...feel alive anymore.
*inhales deeply* What the hell, it's not like I have lungs to damage...
This takes me back. Before everything went to sh**, or before things got worse, whichever makes more sense.
This may be the first time I've felt like this because I was missing someone. Before I could just call someone, have them through the door and in bed not even an hour after my first guest had left.
I've never been lonely.
*sighs*
It's too hot out here and I'm just depressing myself. Egon will be back soon, at least I hope so. I don't think I can take much more of this.
I wonder if he's missing me as much as I am him.