Teh Suckz Thread

[yarwel]

Stupid idiots stupidly put alley furniture in the vacant room attached to mine. It could have bedbugs in it stupid! So obviously you put it in someone else's room so they get the bedbugs for you!? Ok, so nothing's confirmed, but I won't be able to sleep tonight and I really just don't need this right now as I have more than enough stress starting college. I, mean I just barely survived my first week and now I have something more to worry about.

[Sixoclock]

I'd push it right out of the room if you can.

[SugarCorpse]

all this talk has me wondering if i should try medication or really just keep staying away from it x_x

i've been diagnosed as having borderline depression, (what ever that means, no one explained it well) a few years ago. I've been pretty good for quite awhile, like im almost always happy now. but lately when i get depressed it is A LOT worse than it used to be. My boyfriend can usually snap me out of it if he's around but if he's not its hard to do anything or make myself happy one i feel down.

people (docors, therapist, ect.) keep suggesting trying meds to me but i always say no. i really wonder if i should start, cause with my depression when i get to a certain point i cant think straight and nothing i say or do makes sense to me once im happy again. Like im kind of worried i might do something when it causes me to think so differently from how i normally think. i'm worried about it making things a lot worse though, ive heard horror stories of them working in reverse and things like caffeine and random other things affect me a lot differently than most people i know....

does any one have any advice on if i should try it or not?

[Sixoclock]

First, I'll give you the basic talk of... We are only people. Yes, perhaps people with experience, but your situation is unique to you and only you know what you are like and what "may" work for you. Always, consult your doctor, etc.

If you think you might hurt yourself, or someone else, then I would say it is perhaps worth a shot to try medication. Keep in mind that yes, some medications can have the opposite effect (especially with people under 25) - so you always want to make sure you are letting someone know what your side effects are, especially your doctor. Also, let them know of your concern that you may hurt yourself or someone else during your depressed times as well as your fear that it might worsen with medication. You also might want to prepare yourself for a possible conversation about whether or not you feel you need hospitalization during the start of medication.

There's also what they call a "ramp-up" period of 3 - 5 - 7 days or 2 weeks. This is the drug just getting started in your system which can cause side effects (like those I ahve been describing. Also, most anti-depressants (depending on what you take) - take up to 4 weeks to feel the full effect. Yes, that seems like a long time, but you should (should meaning I am speaking from my own personal experience) feel some of the effect, at least a little, before that - but not everyone does. Drugs are a toss in the dark on what will work and what will not because everyone has different chemistry.

Yes, I love caffeine. Yes, I still have a cup in the morning and sometimes one throughout the day. That said, caffeibe is really not the body's friend. It raises your sitting heart rate and makes your heart work harder than it needs to, to do what it needs to. Some people also get extremely emotional or manic while on caffeine which can cause drastic mood changes - which "could" make your depression worse.

Things to think about would be... How often do your depression episodes happen? How long do they last?

There are also some people who can improve their depression naturally - eating differently, excersize, sunlight, vitamens, etc - but this (like medication) does not work for everyone.

Wow, my brain works a lot better when I have slept. Also, I ahve not taken the celexa this morning yet (as I am still eating and take my vits and meds after). I'll be sure to post if there are negatives today.

all this talk has me wondering if i should try medication or really just keep staying away from it x_x

i've been diagnosed as having borderline depression, (what ever that means, no one explained it well) a few years ago. I've been pretty good for quite awhile, like im almost always happy now. but lately when i get depressed it is A LOT worse than it used to be. My boyfriend can usually snap me out of it if he's around but if he's not its hard to do anything or make myself happy one i feel down.

people (docors, therapist, ect.) keep suggesting trying meds to me but i always say no. i really wonder if i should start, cause with my depression when i get to a certain point i cant think straight and nothing i say or do makes sense to me once im happy again. Like im kind of worried i might do something when it causes me to think so differently from how i normally think. i'm worried about it making things a lot worse though, ive heard horror stories of them working in reverse and things like caffeine and random other things affect me a lot differently than most people i know....

does any one have any advice on if i should try it or not?

[Kirahfaye]

I haven't experienced clinical depression myself (though I have going through 2 periods of mild depression and know how it feels), but my sister and my stepdad were bipolar, my ex-husband dealt (poorly) with severe anxiety and my teen daughter was diagnosed with depression at age 12 and mild anxiety at 14.

SugarCorpse, you should be able to find a doctor or therapist willing to work with you to manage your medication use. My daughter has tried Prozac and welbutrin in the past, but is doing well right now with just daily vitamins/minerals and St. John's Wart. Mainly we switched because she suddenly couldn't swallow pills (she knows its psychosomatic) and her psychologist thought it might work. I don't suggest or recommend self diagnosis when it comes to medications for mental illnesses, but a good doctor will do everything in their power to work with your individual needs.

[DollyKim]

I'd say try regular sleeping hours, a healthy diet, and some cognitive therapy first. Why are you feeling that way? Is there something healthy/useful you can do to deal with it? Sometimes all it takes is stopping a thought in it's tracks and distracting yourself. Not exactly retail therapy or gambling, but talking with a friend, playing dolls, playing with a pet, just getting up and walking to the sink to get a drink of water.

There are times when feeling sad is normal, look at the bummer year I've had and I've managed to find glimmers of hope to help me through. It's when your symptoms are affecting your quality of life and taking over that you really do need outside help. I've been there with anxiety and depression, I've been on the road to OCD and hoarding.

[victoriavictrix]

I have chronic depression. After trying many meds, ALL of which flatlined me and made my creative output suck, I take none of them. I work through the crying jags, I eat a healthy diet and I find that the combination of SAMe (200 mg or more as needed), fish oil, 5000 iu of Vitamin D and St John's Wort and 5 HTP at night is as effective at keeping me from bottoming out as any prescription meds were.

I am not alone in finding that SSRIs kill creativity. Most of the writers I know who tried them won't take them anymore.

[Dirili]

I think that the creative kill actually goes away after a while. Either that or for some reason they never did that for me. I've been on a number of things, but I've still always been able to create through it. Always creative ups and downs, but they didn't seam to relate to my meds.

I just know that I can't be creative when I can't pull myself out of bed or stop freaking out because I know I have to go out and do something in 3 days.

Think basically it depends on the degree of your mental instability, how badly it needs to be evened out. I do feel slightly blunted creatively, but I'm able to work through it because I'm calm.

[SugarCorpse]

for me, it happens for no reason. its not a normal sad. when im just sad it goes away usually the same day unless its something big. when im depressed it sneaks up at random and lasts about a week or 2 depending on how bad it is. it never starts off bad, i usually just feel a little off and then i start to feel a little sad even when im happy. Its sometimes easy to be happy when i get depressed but it feels a lot less real when i also feel like crying for no reason. Then after a few days i cant even feel a little bit happy. then usually for one night or so i get really down and think about a whole bunch of things i shouldnt think about, i almost never get any worse than that but when i was 14 there was one thursday morning where i took a bunch of pills for no reason, i cant even remember why but i snapped out of it before i took to many and called 911. so the fact that it could happen is really scary. it's only happened that one time 6 years ago, so i dont think itd happen again if im careful, but if it does ever happen again it would only need to happen once =<

my bf and i have both been trying to eat healthier and get more active, and i got a bjd mostly because when i start getting really depressed dolls are the best way for me to focus on something to keep me from getting to bad, but the nicer the doll i have the easier it is and since i have no idea what happened to my dolls after the fire yet i decided a bjd some monster highs and some ponies were needed.

i think i'll try that for awhile to see how it works. and if not i'll ask my doctor about options.

ALSO - when i start feeling depressed a lot of pickles and chocolate milk help. They almost instantly make me feel better and sometimes if i eat them at the right time i don't even get fully depressed. I'd eat them every time it happened if i could. Everyone should try it, it also works for a friend of mine lol

[Dirili]

I don't know why pickles, but I know chocolate in moderate amounts is supposed to be good for you in several ways, including for depression. Unfortunately i don't like chocolate most of the time. Only get the rare passing fancy for it.

For me, before medication, I didn't have ups and downs so much. I was almost always depressed except for episodes of anxiety and panic attacks when I had to deal with people. So I guess my case is a bit different... ON medication I seem to be a bit more like everyone else where I still get my down periods and episodes, but at least it's not a constant thing with no breaks like it was before.